2 Months of Silence………..

…so its been exactly 2 months and I have barely existed in the last two months.In the last two months I have tried very hard to keep out the guilt of not spending enough time with a dying parent at bay for a bunch of kids I really believed in but who have really let me down

All I have learnt is:

People are selfish
People are mercenaries
They will give you no room for mourning
They will be self serving and dumb of they can get away with it.
Give ppl enough room and they will hang themselves with it
People cant handle responsibility and power
People are selfish…yes repeating
Today’s generation has no sense of being there and taking care of anyone but themselves

While I am dealing with this at work,I have friends who have been rockstar friends who I am avoiding coz I cant handle the pity

I was the tough one,the one who kept it together and now I am the one falling apart with noone standing next to me because I am rude,moody and inconvenient!!

Sorry but wont change!!

I finally have someone wanting to marry me but I cant marry him because he cant handle the ‘needy’ me,he wants to party on the day I want to mourn and I will never be good enough!!

I am fat,ugly and unmanageable!!

Classic combination for a undesirable boss,friend and woman!!

But do I really care?

I am an orphan and thats all I can think of…anything else you care about doesnt matter to ME..sorry I dont care!!

Switching off once and for all!!

Signing off from the world per say!!

Done being your convenient option!!

I have cared too much and I am still standing alone…why bother?